A letter from Yvonne Brown, Jack’s Mother
“When Jack relapsed (in November 2006) and we brought
him here (to Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Care hospital
in the United States), I felt those awful shivers again that I'd
felt during his high dose chemo. Never again would I wish to
put him through that, there is no way to describe the pain.
Realising he was once again on the same journey as before,
Jack became totally unco-operative as he endured yet
another scan, needle or biopsy, the pain and the endless
vomiting during chemo. His veins were so small, and
damaged by now – that the needles would never go in first
time. I broke down as I sat there on this day, I knew 'this is
it, he's given up'. Jack has been the fighter through all of
this, we took our strength from him. When he gives up,
we will know it's time to stop fighting.
BUT Jack hadn't given up, he had reacted to my tears. He became hysterical, shouting at me
'Stop crying mummy, you're upsetting me, stop crying now!' and so we struck a deal. I told him I'd
stop crying if he did, and he did, he just sat there and let them push the needle in, biting his lip and
squeezing my arm as hard as he could. He loved me so much that just to stop me crying, for the next
few days, he would sit and endure these awful needles, the scans and whatever else was to come...
I contacted Phil during those early stages, and asked for his help. I wanted a tribute to Jack.
This song is from me to Jack. It symbolises his bravery, how he was prepared to sit through the pain
just to stop me crying. We had asked Phil to do something that would be a tribute to Jack's courage,
that would also give hope and inspiration to others, and in the process help to raise funds, now for
Jack, but ultimately in future, for other kids who are not ready to give up the fight just yet.
Phil has done all of this, and more, he has cast in stone Jack's love, and I am so grateful.
This is something no one can ever take away from me now. In treatments like this, if the child gives
up, you have lost the battle, and that's why it is so very important.
We cannot allow Jack to give up yet.”